yesterday i chatted with a fellow blogger that seems to be very good in poetry.i asked her how did she started,one of her reason was,once in her life she was lacking of self confidence,and writing poem help her bring up her confidence,i pushed her to tell me what makes her self confidence low at that time,and she said that she was bigger than everybody else.
bigger,huhu one of the substitute word for fat,gemok,gendut,bla bla bla.as for me i prefer to use the word chomel.hehe.please dont get me wrong,im not mocking her,instead,i do understand her,as i had the same problem when i was younger.in fact that was the reason my days in my boarding school are not the best days of my life,they were a part of the worst ones.i was always picked on because of size.
that was that,and i have no intention to elaborate that second paragraph,but now everything is different,society accepts me the way i am,a lot of people wants to be my friend.as my father once said to his friend,"rudy ni,name je dok jepon,tapi kawan satu malaysia".everywhere i go,there is always someone who knows me.
instead of mocking me of being fat,these people always associate me with being cute,im not sure wheather that is just thier way to please me,or maybe it was me,always substituting the word fat with chomel,either way,im happy with them,treating me good,and sharing their fun live with me.
to top it up,my other half accepted me,and said that she liked me,tembam2 chomel.hehehe i love her so much
tak sangka lak ade gak orang bace entry kite smalam ek encik blog,anyway pada encik ron,sorry aa wa takleh nak komen,papepon mekaseh je aa kot.
malam smalam aku nengok welkap spain lawan ukraine,gile aa power spain sampai 4 gol,german first game pon 4 gol,tapi due bolos,spain 4-0 tu.tapi espn kate penalti yang spain dapat tu tak adil,haha pedulik ape,mase tu dah 2 gol dah,kompem menang nye spain.tapi yang lawak nye espn dok berulang kali kate kekalahan ukraine 0-4 ni satu mende baik,sebab menyebab kan US tak jadik team paling last.haha tah pape je,camne pon US takkan menang laa.
aku nengok game smalam tu sambel buat repot jikken(eksperimen),basically banyak calculation and graf kene buat,sume ok je aa,just ade satu point dalam repot tu takleh siapkan,sebab rase nye data tak ambik mase eksperimen lepas,so sepanjang game smalam aku gundah gulana aa dok pk mane aa aku nak dapat kan data tu.dari sebelom game sampai aa sejam pas game,pening pale aku dok pk camne nak selesaikan,then aku give up,and tido.tadi mase pi skolah,aku tanye kawan aku yang buat eksperimen same,sekali die kate point tu takyah buat,ceh hampeh je,penat aku pk smalam.
anyway encik blog,everything seems to be ok aa,aku tak tensyen sangat dah skarang,ni aku nak bagi ko gamba awek aku,comelkan die,aku lak tembam gile mase ambik gamba ni,mase aku balek mesia arituh.die kate gamba ni gamba fevert die.camne aa awek cute camtu leh syok kat aku kan?huhu rezeki aku aa kot hehe,aku sayang die sangat tau encik blog.tak sabar nak balek jumpe die lagi,hikhik.
ok laa encik blog,aku blah dulu aa ek,jumpe ko lagi besok ek,tata encik blog
for the past weeks i have been busy with things that i really dont know what,and i seem to be neglecting you.im so sorry,but please dont get me wrong,its not that i dont love u,i do love u,but not as much as i love miss anis,that cute nurse,alaa encik blog,die penah bace ko laa.takkan lupe kot?
ape aku ngarot ni,kesian ek ko encik blog,sure ko tensyen ngan prangai aku yang tah pape ni.but all this might be ,because aku tension,yela,aku dok sini hari2 with nothing to do,i dont have classes,only on friday afternoons,and thursday mornings,other than those the lab are always empty,with me not knowing to do what.most of my days are full of loneliness.
some say,"go and travel la while u have the free time",and those words really made my tense level higher,i,really wish to do that,but i cant,my scholarship monye is late 3 month and my savings drying up.well,its a good thing i do have saving or ill be dried up by now.
why the hell im telling u this pon aku tatau aa encik blog,just tension i guess.so aku luahkan aa kat ko,hopely tade sape bace,as aku tak blog for a very long time,and ramai dah malas nak masok tgk ko kan encik blog,takpe aa,aku still akan jage ko.ok la encik blog,babai dulu,nanti aku datang jumpe ko lagi ek.
